oh, it is love?

i am unbelieveably, undeniably missing so many people that i love. i can’t even believe how much i miss them. i have never felt this way before. and even if i had, i have never felt this way to many people before. it’s killing me. ooh my goodness. i feel so sad. i mean, it’s good that i’m in a new place and in a new environment also with new people. but i am just not in that place anymore where i  want to find out how those people really are. from what i’ve seen, some of them are just nice to me when they need something or they need me for some reason. but when they find something better they gos to someone else. i’m just so tired of meeting people like that. why can’t people just be nice? and i mean really nice. not fake. what’s so hard  about being a sincere person? they are sometimes nice. but they act as if i’m a kid.  or they treat me in a way that i just don’t like.

oh my goodness. i am so sad :(. uuuhhhhh i really do wish i could go back to highschool. i miss waking up at 4 in the morning, to get ready to go to school knowing that i will go home at 4 or 5 in the afternoon. knowing that i will meet the same people every single day of the week (except saturday and sunday of course). and when i arrive at school in the morning i always see the same sweet, lovely faces that i love so much. going to every single class just to say hi. i miss hearing everyone saying assalamualaikum everytime they come into the room. i miss praying together. i miss every single day that i had in highschool. i just can’t let go. i know it’s time but.. i just can’t  i love them so much

and i know that we’ll meet again. i mean, this doesn’t mean  that we won’t see eachother. but, ooh dear.. i just can’t let go :(

it’s really scary to start a new beginning. i’ve always been scared to lose what i have and begin something. because i never know what’s going to happen when i lose and begin something. because i get so attached with what i have.

i’m so scared to be in university. it’s so different. people aren’t as nice. oh my goodness, i’m so scared.

i guess it’s easy for him to get over something that he said he’s been waiting for THREE FREAKIN’ YEARS! astaghfirullaah.

i thought i was ready to make everything better by saying to him that i still want to be friends but i guess i’m not.

i have definitely started a new life. finding new friends. seeing new people. it’s definitely fun, but it makes me miss my old friends. even though we still meet each other. but, i miss them so much. i don’t know if i can find people like them anymore.

i miss my friends : (

today he’s moving. he didn’t even tell me. oh well. maybe he’s  just not man enough. i know i’m not mad. eventhough i want to be. but, i mean it’s his life. so he can do whatever he wants to do.

it’s just not meant to be. haha

katy perry - hot n cold acoustic

made me think.. hmm