October 2009
1 post
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i am unbelieveably, undeniably missing so many people that i love. i can’t even believe how much i miss them. i have never felt this way before. and even if i had, i have never felt this way to many people before. it’s killing me. ooh my goodness. i feel so sad. i mean, it’s good that i’m in a new place and in a new environment also with new people. but i am just not in...
September 2009
4 posts
it's scary
it’s really scary to start a new beginning. i’ve always been scared to lose what i have and begin something. because i never know what’s going to happen when i lose and begin something. because i get so attached with what i have.
i’m so scared to be in university. it’s so different. people aren’t as nice. oh my goodness, i’m so scared.
“it’s only worth it if you make it worthy.”
get over it!
i guess it’s easy for him to get over something that he said he’s been waiting for THREE FREAKIN’ YEARS! astaghfirullaah.
i thought i was ready to make everything better by saying to him that i still want to be friends but i guess i’m not.
the new and the old.
i have definitely started a new life. finding new friends. seeing new people. it’s definitely fun, but it makes me miss my old friends. even though we still meet each other. but, i miss them so much. i don’t know if i can find people like them anymore.
i miss my friends : (
August 2009
13 posts
let's move along.
today he’s moving. he didn’t even tell me. oh well. maybe he’s just not man enough. i know i’m not mad. eventhough i want to be. but, i mean it’s his life. so he can do whatever he wants to do.
it’s just not meant to be. haha
“what’s the point of saying goodbye, when there’s nothing to say...”
“it’s never easy losing someone, especially someone you don’t have.”
cry fest
these past few days made me so sad. i cried a lot over nothing.
huuhh. i’m supposed to be happy and relieved that he said the things that i want him to say. but not quite everything i wanted. maybe i want to much? i can’t believe he’s leaving soon. once again, i don’t think i’m sad entirely because he’s leaving but he just hasn’t made everything clear. he...
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this day made me even more confused on what i should do.
today, he said so many things that made me happy. he said sorry for not telling me something he should. he said a couple of things that led me to think he still likes me. i mean, at some point i think we both know that we still do. but now, it’s like i’m not sure if i should wait for him. i just need him to be clear on what he...
thankful.
i keep asking myself what will the future bring. i am so affraid it’ll be a bad one. every little happy thing always gets brought down by something horrible. of course when we think about it, all good things come to an end. and so does bad things. the difference is that bad things give us pain, and pain makes time feels longer.
we all will get our share of saddness. we just have to keep...
sad endings, happy beginnings?
today i’m pretty sad. just found out that the guy i liked is going to move far away. but that’s not the reason i’m sad. i already knew he was going to move, what makes me sad is the fact that he didn’t tell me. that makes me think that he doesn’t like me. and maybe i was just wasting my feelings on something that was never there in the first place.
i actually waited...
is it fixable?
so many problems that aren’t even suppose to happen, but happened anyway only because stupid misunderstandings. i am unbelieveably heartbroken from all of this drama. and the thing is, i’m not even involved in it. but it effects me so much. because it’s between my two friends that are really close to me.
i guess, i’m so used to being with them and now there’s this...
crazy-ness!!
i miss the old days when i get to meet all my friends pretty much everyday. although i really hate waking up in the morning, but it’s definitely worth it.
sebenernya siih sekarang juga bisa ketemu tiap hari ye kaan.. buktinyaa for the past 6 days i haven’t actually been home. di rumah siih tapi kaya cuma sekedar buat tidur dan mandi doang. selanjutnya gue pergi lagi pergii lagii. abis...
“is it life that gets in our way? or is it just us?”
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hey,
this is my first post. there are so many things that i want to write right now. but i can’t seem to find the right words. anywayyy..
i’ll pretty much be expressing every feeling i have at that time.
so please do enjoy my next post : )