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i am unbelieveably, undeniably missing so many people that i love. i can’t even believe how much i miss them. i have never felt this way before. and even if i had, i have never felt this way to many people before. it’s killing me. ooh my goodness. i feel so sad. i mean, it’s good that i’m in a new place and in a new environment also with new people. but i am just not in that place anymore where i want to find out how those people really are. from what i’ve seen, some of them are just nice to me when they need something or they need me for some reason. but when they find something better they gos to someone else. i’m just so tired of meeting people like that. why can’t people just be nice? and i mean really nice. not fake. what’s so hard about being a sincere person? they are sometimes nice. but they act as if i’m a kid. or they treat me in a way that i just don’t like.
oh my goodness. i am so sad :(. uuuhhhhh i really do wish i could go back to highschool. i miss waking up at 4 in the morning, to get ready to go to school knowing that i will go home at 4 or 5 in the afternoon. knowing that i will meet the same people every single day of the week (except saturday and sunday of course). and when i arrive at school in the morning i always see the same sweet, lovely faces that i love so much. going to every single class just to say hi. i miss hearing everyone saying assalamualaikum everytime they come into the room. i miss praying together. i miss every single day that i had in highschool. i just can’t let go. i know it’s time but.. i just can’t i love them so much
and i know that we’ll meet again. i mean, this doesn’t mean that we won’t see eachother. but, ooh dear.. i just can’t let go :(
